Have you ever had to go through something so difficult that that you didn't even want to talk about it? Well that is how I have been feeling this last year. I have tried to keep a stiff upper lip and put on a good face but a person can only handle so much. James lost his job earlier this spring (he was given a one year contract to find another job). It has been a rough road to travel down. We already weren't very happy with Texas but this really put it over the edge. James has been looking for a new job for almost 2 years now. I guess what I am trying to say is that life has been hard. James' ego has been severally bruised and we have been very unsure about our future. We have had to trust that the Lord is aware of us and something will work out. I keep thinking that in a week or two we would have some good news. But then months have gone by and nothing.
So with all this going on our car broke two different times, we have had sick kids, James went through surgery, an ER visit, and busy (very busy) church callings. I have been feeling like it is all I can handle. I have been trying to tell myself that trials and adversity help me to grow and progress as a person. Well, I have felt growth. James and I have been closer than ever. There are times that I wish James would just say everything is going to be fine, but he's going through this just like me.
We felt like we were supposed to move to Texas. We have strengthened our family and feel like we are more grown-up than ever. I want to apologize to all of my friends and family that I have talked to these last few months and not shared about our problem. This has been such a painful process that talking about it hurt too much.
But I am not telling you all this to make you depressed and down. This story ends happy. James was just offered a job in Utah!!!!! (In South Jordon at Roseman University)We are super excited and don't have all the details but the one thing I know is the job starts October 1st, so, soon. Now life is going to go from busy to hectic. But it is a good hectic! We will keep everyone posted on details. Thanks and the Lord does bless you when you try to do what is right.
